Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Small Accomplishments

Well, how excited am I to log onto my blog and find comments from friends. Yes, I can work my blog. So today, it will rain. I can smell it. And I love it. I'm praying for thunder. I was thinking we skipped spring and jumped right into summer, but maybe Cache Valley will get a storm before the hot summer nights are here to stay.

I am in the library and there are two children out in the hallway, barking. I wish they would stop. . . . this past weekend was just wonderful. It was full of some of my favorite people. (Honestly, where is their mother?) Somedays, I just really wish we could go backwards. We're not supposed to want that. Walt Disney makes movies about that. "Just keep swimming" and "keep moving forward" and "move along" (so that wasn't disney, that was AAR) remind us to reach for the stars, to live the impossible dream, and all that other crap. . . Oh all those things are good. And I know it's important to keep growing. But how comfy it is to sit across the table from people you know and love, whom you feel safe with and loved by! We all reach a point in life when we need change and welcome new things. I feel that now. I have so many opportunities coming up. I can move to SLC, I will get a new J-O-B, and meet all kinds of new people (including my 2 men/week). Clearly these are good things. And in preparing for all these things to happen, I really just want to crawl in my bed at Brooklane, knowing that my roommates are outside drinking fruity drinks or writing papers, or having dance parties- and wake up the next morning at 6 for work, where I know I can do the job, and the people I work with like me. I want to go back to the place where it was o.k. to be single, and even though ron was a nun - I still truly believed it wouldn't be long before I would meet my "true love". I want to go back to 22, and Final Warning, to cheap gas and drives to Idaho. I want to go back to before I knew Kyle. Strange that my weekend in Salt Lake, as fun as it was, really just made me homesick for 'before'. But, everything happens for a reason. And what was "before" is a huge part of me "now". I'm grateful for my life and the people in it. I'm grateful for the good stories I have and for good people to share them with. So for all those from "before"---here's to new babies, new jobs, traveling, nursing licenses, finishing school, new hot haircuts, etc. . . thanks for hanging around. Love you.

5 comments:

Toni said...

Ugh! Changes suck ...isn't growing up painful?! No one tells you that part! I too wish I could go back to the days of fruity drinks and root beer and dance parties, and spying on people through the blinds, and tracing people on te giant white board, complaining about 0730 classes, rolling on the floor laughing, and dressing up derek Jeter. OK, I still do the last one, but it's not the same without you! Love and miss you!

Elise said...

I get so "homesick" for before! I would love to go back for a weekend that would include Final Warning, superstar, basketball, drives to idaho, dressing up...etc... etc...ect

random thoughts said...

Even MORE sad I missed lunch. Love you.

Kelly said...

Sarah! Salt LAKE! Here you come. Ya know what next step you should take? (and I'll join you) ... visiting, possibly moving to - but let's just stick with visiting for now, IRELAND! Or/and England, Scotland, Italy........ yes????? How FUN would that be?! Okay, I need to get my passport. But once that comes... I think we should go. And I also think it'd be way fun to live together. :) Yay. I love you!

jill said...

i love you guys and miss it terribly too...here's to everyone settling in SLC...right? right!