Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I'm smart enough to be a CNA.

In fact, I have met CNA's who I really am not sure how they became CNA's. But today, I have a problem. Yesterday I had 4 problems, and I will tell you what they were. Today I have only one: I'M FREAKING OUT ABOUT MY TEST!!! It's tomorrow at 1:45. First, I take my skills test, then my written. Really, I'm not too nervous about my written test, I did really well on the final, and I've studied hard. I even made flash cards. But the skills test: it's not even that I don't understand what to do. It's NOT hard. But I HATE people watching me. And I've asked Butch to teach me the slip release knot twice, and I just can't seem to get it. I get all nervous and I just stare at the rope, like it's going to tie itself. That is my main problem today.

Now yesterday there were more problems. 1)I have attraction issues with married men. This is number 3. Now the first one was Married Chris, whom I did not know was married. . . so maybe he doesn't count. The second, being Andrew, which really wasn't my fault. He got engaged then told me he'd love me forever. Who wouldn't have issues with that? Then there was Chad at my work. And he was dangerous. We'll call him Dangerous Chad. But now he lives in Germany, and I can not feel so guilty about even speaking to him. And now, there is another. Now let me just say, I am not a homewrecker. I would NEVER EVER EVER even CONSIDER flirting or anything more than that with someone else's husband. Seriously. My morals are good, and I would never do anyone any harm. My problem is, men and women cannot just be friends. And I have a friend that I work with, and I need to quit my job. He's just too much fun. ANd he's cute in a dorky boy kind of way, and I just feel horrible that I wish he wasn't married. Because he is. Nothing tragic, just a little crush that will send me straight to hell. Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's husband/wife/belongings.

Problem number 2. I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO MAKE THIS MOVE. I need a place to live. I need someone with a truck. I need a job-which means I need to pass my CNA. Refer to today's problem.

5 comments:

sarahbrowniz said...

Ok, just to verify, men and women can't be just friends--um. I don't know, that's kind of grey area to me. I think EVENTUALLY men and women can't be just friends. It depends on a lot of things. . . time spent together, other stuff. I have lots of guy friends, but sometimes it is just difficult. I don't know what else to say.

Elise said...

are you moving to salt lake?!!! I will help you move in if you are!

Toni said...

Good luck sweetie! You'll do great, I know you will! Let me know how it goes ...and stupid boys and their stupid boy penises! Love you!

Kelly said...

Oh my gosh, that attraction to married men dealio...... ha ha ha... we remember Rely & Johanna's son. What was his name? Patrick? Pastor... something. With ya on that. And dang, wish I owned/knew someone who owned a truck. When's the big move?!

jill said...

1. hey I have a truck. and a really big surburban if you want to help with gas...it carried all my stuff home fine. 2. how was your test???